November 20th- 22nd, I led no life. On Friday, I spent the entire afternoon reading/ watching TLC instead of going to a Cartel concert- I could have gone, but I am the most lame college student on the face of the planet, and therefore opted not to go out in the rain.
Instead, that night, I stayed in my dorm room and found out that the University wasn't even going to interview me (which, let's be honest, is my strongest point) to be a Resident Assistant in the dorm next year. Well guess what, fuck you, now I can move off campus.
I'm going to be honest, I cried when I found out. I was having a pity party by myself- thinking about how I have made so few friends here, how much I miss my besties back home, how this must be a bad omen and I won't get OA (orientation advisor) and so on. On Saturday I told myself to buck up, go make friends, but alas, I just stayed in my room and watched True Blood all day.
That Sunday, however, things began to look up. I decided to join a group called Texas SOS (Saving Our Sisters) against domestic violence. It is something that interests me, so I went to this training workshop thing they were holding that morning/afternoon. I met the three co-chairs who were all extremely nice- one of which is an OA herself- and seemed to really like me as I liked them. I met some regular members of the group and the Girl Scout volunteer coordinator. I could really see myself getting quite involved in this group which made me so happy, it was ridiculous. I came home that afternoon refreshed and happy- looking up! I thought, "Maybe I can get OA..." because I had actually identified really well with the girl that is an OA. I thought, "Maybe they want more people like her... and that's kind of like me!"
I didn't sleep well Sunday night, all I could think about were the possibilities- if I got OA, I would automatically have 90 or so new friends... good friends... all here with me at school rather than all at home. I would get to spend most of the summer away from my mother... and I would be really involved in something- my life would have a serious purpose (I am not saying it didn't before, but you know what I mean).
Things were also looking up because I wasn't quite a pathetic loser anymore and found someone to live with next year- something I am still really thankful for.
On Monday night, I didn't sleep well either- waiting for that OA decision. Tough. (Random side note, my neighbors are making crazy sounds, holy shit I hate them sometimes)
At 10 AM- no e-mail, and for an excruciatingly long 25 minutes, I waited for the e-mail from New Student Services.
Then, it came...
NSS: 2010 New Orientation Advisor Decision
The crucial moment:
Dear Applicant,
ohGod,ohGod,ohGod, whatsitgonnasay?
Congratulations! I am pleased to confirm that you have been selected as an Orientation Advisor for the 2010 Summer Orientation program.
YESSSSSS!!!! Nothing is BETTER than that e-mail. There's more to it, of course, but that is the sentence I cared about the most. The first word "congratulations!" I died!
Looking up! Finally.
I am very thankful to God, because he answered my prayers... I prayed and I prayed about OA- and I knew deep down, this was where I needed to be. I can't wait.
